“Appu…love you so much,,,its nice to see you so strong and level headed.
It is still so difficult to digest the fact that Aparna Das is clear about what she wants from life..what she expects and what her priorities are..”
A cup of coffee and some toast…Two stupid people and Pune’s MG road.
9 AM
CCD >>>> George>>>>Barista
She treated me everywhere that day…J
Hey girl. It just a matter of few more years ..a lil more stuggles…and a lil more tears..
But hang on..things will be great and things will be right..
Don’t give up on what you believe in…that’s the most important thing…don’t lose faith,,,everything else will just pass by..
Don’t wanna preach to a lawyer..:P
And hey….You have started looking really beautiful…I know it’s a lil too late..but so what…atleast I am sure you don’t get these kinda complimets from anywhere else…
Sunday, January 6, 2008
She came, I saw and I fell in love….
A warm handshake… and not a hug. A simple hi, a formal how are you? And not the usual embrace..
It must have been sometime since I last saw her face… Won’t go on to write that it felt like eternity…coz it didn’t!!
Time is weird. Sometimes it just passes so quickly that you don’t even realize that a lot has happened. And sometimes it just refuses to move…
I asked myself…hey are you ok?
Something inside me said. Never felt better!!
I asked again…why are you so happy?
But this time there was no reply..hmm,,,maybe I should not force myself…and I simply tried and relaxed …totally oblivious to people and things around me..
During the next three or four days I realised… why I was happy..what made me so happy?
Call it filmy..call it exaggerating..
It was nice to see her happy…nice to know that she is doing good,,,nice to know that she is happy..nice to know that her family is doing great…nice to know that she is still in touch with her old friends…nice to know that eventhough Last one year has changed her a lot…but she is essentially the same girl that I fell in love with…(sometime back…a memory lost in history now..) ..nice to know that small lil things still get her all excited..nice to know that she is fighting for what she wants,,nice to know that she hasn’t lost her focus,,,nice to know so many more things…
And I fell in love,,,no no,,don’t get me wrong..i didn’t fall in love with her all again…I fell in love with that moment…A moment that I will cherish for a long time..I was proud..i was happy..i wanted to cry..,,,and then slowly I said to myself…
You played your part well…congrats..and quietly I got busy in the noise….
It must have been sometime since I last saw her face… Won’t go on to write that it felt like eternity…coz it didn’t!!
Time is weird. Sometimes it just passes so quickly that you don’t even realize that a lot has happened. And sometimes it just refuses to move…
I asked myself…hey are you ok?
Something inside me said. Never felt better!!
I asked again…why are you so happy?
But this time there was no reply..hmm,,,maybe I should not force myself…and I simply tried and relaxed …totally oblivious to people and things around me..
During the next three or four days I realised… why I was happy..what made me so happy?
Call it filmy..call it exaggerating..
It was nice to see her happy…nice to know that she is doing good,,,nice to know that she is happy..nice to know that her family is doing great…nice to know that she is still in touch with her old friends…nice to know that eventhough Last one year has changed her a lot…but she is essentially the same girl that I fell in love with…(sometime back…a memory lost in history now..) ..nice to know that small lil things still get her all excited..nice to know that she is fighting for what she wants,,nice to know that she hasn’t lost her focus,,,nice to know so many more things…
And I fell in love,,,no no,,don’t get me wrong..i didn’t fall in love with her all again…I fell in love with that moment…A moment that I will cherish for a long time..I was proud..i was happy..i wanted to cry..,,,and then slowly I said to myself…
You played your part well…congrats..and quietly I got busy in the noise….
Nostalgia hits me!!! Bang Bang Bang!!!!
I was standing in front of C.O.E.P bus stand. Scared to look at my own Alma mater. Swapnil was supposed to pick me up. He didn’t turn up. So I decided to go straight to my aunt’s place. It was nice and it felt good to walk in the lanes that led to my aunt’s place. The busy life of the lower middle class people always fascinates me. Totally ignorant to all the materialistic pleasures in the world. Happy with whatever they have and they can afford.
They were so happy to receive me. It sometime scares me when I realize that they think really high of me and don’t lose an opportunity to praise me. Nevertheless I enjoy it.
“When will you come to town, Bastard??” Anubhav enquired.
“No sooner than 8 PM” was my reply. And 8 it was when I met swapnil, anubhav and sahil.
Sipping over a coffee and burning a lil more inside..i called up joy..The place had already started to haunt me. It reminded me of many a people. Aparna, Joy, Sahil, Anubhav, Abhijeet and Tanvi.
Bhushan was missing from the scene as usual. Not that he does it intentionally. But then it is now a matter of fact that we have gone on to make sure that we really don’t expect anything from his side.
Crap!!! Don’t feel like writing anymore…feelings sleepy.
They were so happy to receive me. It sometime scares me when I realize that they think really high of me and don’t lose an opportunity to praise me. Nevertheless I enjoy it.
“When will you come to town, Bastard??” Anubhav enquired.
“No sooner than 8 PM” was my reply. And 8 it was when I met swapnil, anubhav and sahil.
Sipping over a coffee and burning a lil more inside..i called up joy..The place had already started to haunt me. It reminded me of many a people. Aparna, Joy, Sahil, Anubhav, Abhijeet and Tanvi.
Bhushan was missing from the scene as usual. Not that he does it intentionally. But then it is now a matter of fact that we have gone on to make sure that we really don’t expect anything from his side.
Crap!!! Don’t feel like writing anymore…feelings sleepy.
The Train
I know, it would remind you of one of these three things:
The Music band
The English movie(1964)
The Hindi Movie(2007)
Anyways, the title doesn’t have anything to do with the content.
It’s so weird. I usually (almost all the time) travel all alone. And I usually travel the most in my circle of friends. The long journey give’s me ample amount of time to sit back, close my eyes and think ….think,,,and think a lot!!!
Excited---to meet mom n dad!
Excited---to meet di, jiju n varun!!
Mixed feelings---to meet old pals. Talked to joy and anamitra regarding this when sahil, joy, anmaitra and me had no roof on top of our heads in pune one day or rather night.
Sad---to go to Pune gain. I think it should be scared and not sad.
11 PM
The train was running three hours late. Reached home at 12. Mom had made south Indian food.
1 AM
My stomach felt good. The food had made me happy. I closed my eyes. Still thinking and wondering about ….Drat!!! I should stop thinking…I bloody think a lot!!
“Good Night” I said to myself.
The Music band
The English movie(1964)
The Hindi Movie(2007)
Anyways, the title doesn’t have anything to do with the content.
It’s so weird. I usually (almost all the time) travel all alone. And I usually travel the most in my circle of friends. The long journey give’s me ample amount of time to sit back, close my eyes and think ….think,,,and think a lot!!!
Excited---to meet mom n dad!
Excited---to meet di, jiju n varun!!
Mixed feelings---to meet old pals. Talked to joy and anamitra regarding this when sahil, joy, anmaitra and me had no roof on top of our heads in pune one day or rather night.
Sad---to go to Pune gain. I think it should be scared and not sad.
11 PM
The train was running three hours late. Reached home at 12. Mom had made south Indian food.
1 AM
My stomach felt good. The food had made me happy. I closed my eyes. Still thinking and wondering about ….Drat!!! I should stop thinking…I bloody think a lot!!
“Good Night” I said to myself.
Indecisiveness
Some time in December
Mails kept pouring in..my inbox was full..
Calls kept coming.. my battery was almost dead.
SMS continued..my fingers had started aching..
And yet I was not sure whether I could make it to pune on 28th December.
Almost One week later!!
Friday 21, 2007
Friday night..group party..free booze, (humans drink booze like water, especially when u get it for free..sad, but true) , and dance!! I hate dancing. I love to dance when I am all alone, when no one can point fingers at me and laugh over my steps or the expressions on my face. Its ok!! I am not a great dancer and I feel it’s not such a big deal that people have to make it such a big issue. So I was enjoying my drink and music and the company of my friends.
1.30 AM
Should head back to home. I have to catch a train to Hyderabad tomorrow. Leaving early didn’t help though. Somehow just cannot manage to sleep before 3 or 4 AM. Thanks to a certain stage of my life!!
9 AM – Next day
The guy from Karvy had come. I had to wrap up my investments for the year to save myself from the taxes.
The talk continued till 1 PM.
Had booked a cab. Saumil came along.
5 PM
The train left. The indecisiveness had vanished. Yes!! I was on my way. Still wondering how things would unfold for me in the coming few days. Had loads of stuff on my mind related to family, friends, and money and of course….MYSELF!!!
Mails kept pouring in..my inbox was full..
Calls kept coming.. my battery was almost dead.
SMS continued..my fingers had started aching..
And yet I was not sure whether I could make it to pune on 28th December.
Almost One week later!!
Friday 21, 2007
Friday night..group party..free booze, (humans drink booze like water, especially when u get it for free..sad, but true) , and dance!! I hate dancing. I love to dance when I am all alone, when no one can point fingers at me and laugh over my steps or the expressions on my face. Its ok!! I am not a great dancer and I feel it’s not such a big deal that people have to make it such a big issue. So I was enjoying my drink and music and the company of my friends.
1.30 AM
Should head back to home. I have to catch a train to Hyderabad tomorrow. Leaving early didn’t help though. Somehow just cannot manage to sleep before 3 or 4 AM. Thanks to a certain stage of my life!!
9 AM – Next day
The guy from Karvy had come. I had to wrap up my investments for the year to save myself from the taxes.
The talk continued till 1 PM.
Had booked a cab. Saumil came along.
5 PM
The train left. The indecisiveness had vanished. Yes!! I was on my way. Still wondering how things would unfold for me in the coming few days. Had loads of stuff on my mind related to family, friends, and money and of course….MYSELF!!!
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